Friday, November 26, 2010
Leaves and Last Goodbyes
The chill of late autumn mimics the chill of my soul.
Since you left, my heart is broken.
There’s no place left to go.
I walked down to the lake today, sat on the bank and cried.
The dogwood that you planted there
Is withered black and dry.
Only a few sparse leaves are clinging, like memories in my heart.
As I hung my head and sat there
I could feel the teardrops start.
Hopeless and helpless, I held my knees, trying to get a grip.
Talking to God and begging please
As useless prayers spilled from my lips
I told Him I was angry because He didn’t keep you alive.
He didn’t answer why the cancer
Took you at only thirty- five
I have to go home to our children now and tell them mommy is gone
I wish I could stay here somehow
I feel so lost and all alone
A gentle wind blew from the lake and caught a burnt black sail
And a dogwood leaf filled with grief
Trembled silent and fell
I remember you lying in the hospital bed saying I had to carry on
I love our children but I’m bewildered...as to how
Now that my love and life are gone
The hour is getting later and darker; endless tendrils of tomorrow
Like the dogwood’s tiny fingers...lingering
Clawing the hem of heaven in sorrow